I'm sitting here sobbing reading all of these stories -- and I have been fantasizing about amputation for over a year, and am made to feel like some horrific person! I am 45, have had MS for 15 years, single full custody mum, tripped 3 years ago and tore ankle, three surgeries since and I haven't had one day where I can weight bare. On meds all the time with horrible side effects - or under medicate myself and end up yelling at my son for no reason - but I'm in agony. Then on Dancing with the Strars, they keep featuring amputees, and it makes me seep with envy that they seem to be in no pain and living lives while I have become a shut in, lost all of my friends - have no life, nothing to look forward to. No one will ever love me again. I will never get to go on vacation again. All I have is pain.
I guarantee if these doctors and people tried to exist in my pain for even a week, crawling to go to the loo Bc hurts to much to walk... Showering every two weeks. Surrounded by pills and loneliness - they would view my desire for amputation totally differently.
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I'm sitting here sobbing reading all of these stories -- and I have been fantasizing about amputation for over a year, and am made to feel like some horrific person! I am 45, have had MS for 15 years, single full custody mum, tripped 3 years ago and tore ankle, three surgeries since and I haven't had one day where I can weight bare. On meds all the time with horrible side effects - or under medicate myself and end up yelling at my son for no reason - but I'm in agony. Then on Dancing with the Strars, they keep featuring amputees, and it makes me seep with envy that they seem to be in no pain and living lives while I have become a shut in, lost all of my friends - have no life, nothing to look forward to. No one will ever love me again. I will never get to go on vacation again. All I have is pain.
September 2, 2015 - 8:53pmI guarantee if these doctors and people tried to exist in my pain for even a week, crawling to go to the loo Bc hurts to much to walk... Showering every two weeks. Surrounded by pills and loneliness - they would view my desire for amputation totally differently.
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