I stay in bed most of the time. I don't want to go out to groups. I read books and web. I live in MI. I believe in Spiritualism and there are only 3 churches in MI, none close to my home. Churches do not welcome my beliefs and the last thing I need is a sermon. My husband's PCP (I do not have one) contacted me and prescribed Celexa antidepressant but it's been nearly a month and nothing. I prefer alternative to pharma. I have always had insomnia but now it is much worse. Please don't tell me to exercise for endorphins and stuff of that nature. I had to go to the bank and it was horrendous. I gave them my husband's cards and watched as they erased him from the computer. It was just like losing him all over again and I could not wait to get home. The loss of my daughter by suicide torments me and probably will forever. I miss her and my husband beyond belief and never dreamed a peerson could cry as much as I do. I look forward to being with them. There is nothing here for me because I really don't want it. I am 71 and have not lived a sheltered life. This was my 3rd marriage and I was finally blessed with a good man. Losing my daughter brought sounds from my body I didn't know existed. I sounded like a wounded animal which is what I am.
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I stay in bed most of the time. I don't want to go out to groups. I read books and web. I live in MI. I believe in Spiritualism and there are only 3 churches in MI, none close to my home. Churches do not welcome my beliefs and the last thing I need is a sermon. My husband's PCP (I do not have one) contacted me and prescribed Celexa antidepressant but it's been nearly a month and nothing. I prefer alternative to pharma. I have always had insomnia but now it is much worse. Please don't tell me to exercise for endorphins and stuff of that nature. I had to go to the bank and it was horrendous. I gave them my husband's cards and watched as they erased him from the computer. It was just like losing him all over again and I could not wait to get home. The loss of my daughter by suicide torments me and probably will forever. I miss her and my husband beyond belief and never dreamed a peerson could cry as much as I do. I look forward to being with them. There is nothing here for me because I really don't want it. I am 71 and have not lived a sheltered life. This was my 3rd marriage and I was finally blessed with a good man. Losing my daughter brought sounds from my body I didn't know existed. I sounded like a wounded animal which is what I am.
November 11, 2011 - 2:06pmThis Comment
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