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Thank you so much for this article!
I've been searching for information on this topic and there is certainly a dearth.
I just wanted to say that it's so wonderful to read others' experiences of that lack of connection. It broke my heart that my mother didn't (and still doesn't) want to get to know me and implied that I was a drama queen if I displayed any emotion. My emotional needs were totally unmet. I realised a couple of years ago that she is AS (undiagnosed). I've been trying to figure her out all my life. I see myself as quite an empathic and insightful person (psychology wise) & I always felt totally at a loss when it came to understanding what made her tick. It's been such a painful relationship. I remember once saying to her "it's as if you only love me when I'm doing exactly what you want me to" and she said "Yes" as in - yeah, of course, how else would it be? I was flabbergasted.
I have bipolar disorder and PTSD and my psychiatrist and psychologist both feel strongly that there was trauma in my childhood. I've been searching for answers - sexual abuse, perpetrators etc, and now I'm just wondering if it was unintentional neglect / abuse by my mother.
I just don't seem to have a foundation within myself if that makes sense.
Best wishes to all, Suki

May 30, 2011 - 8:17pm

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